Hello everyone, Just thought that I would give you an update. I know I can go to my parents house, they would never mind. I spoke to my mom today and she said that they would do whatever it takes to help me out. And stand by me nomatter what decesion I make. I just really hate to burden them with my problems though. I know they don't mind, but they're not as young as they used to be, and the last thing I want to do is to bother them with my problems, but I guess I have no other choice. My husband and I have not really spoken for a couple of days. I told him that I wanted to leave, so hes been mad at me. He didn't go to the meeting tonight though. I just don't know how else to talk to him about this. My parents seem to think that If I leave him that he would eventually come around. He's a really good man at heart, but he would be a better one if he would find the real truth.I think that if he did find the real truth that everything between us would be fine. Oh how I wish I could find a man like my father, he and my mom have been married for 25 years. And they are very happy, they are always kissing and telling eachother "I Love You". I want my marriage to be just like that. My husband has a hard time showing any kind of affection, you wouldn't think so since hes been raised in such a "loving religion". But then again thats probaly the problem. Anniversaries are the only thing that they do celebrate, and I don't even get anything then. But thats not important right now. Like everyone has said on here, getting myself together and taking care of my kids is the number 1 thing right now. My husband can take care of himself.
So anyway I guess I'll go to my parents' house, I don't know right now if its going to be for good or not. All I know is that I need to get away to work out some things for myself. Before I do have a breakdown.He doesn't think that I'm serious. When I told him that I was moving back to my hometown, he said that he would take the kids away from me. Which doesn't scare me. I know I'm not an unfit mother, and he couldn't take care of them anyway. His whole family works and he works 6 days a week. So he would have no way to take care of them.I don't know when I'll be leaving, but before I do, I'll write more.
Thanks again everyone, you've helped me more than you'll ever know.